Jesus fucking christ, what a month.
It’s been intense, and wonderful, and challenging, and frightening, and amazing, and life-changing, and I could go on with the superlatives but instead I’ll start talking about why.
Highlights of the Month
- Completing the practical section of uni. It’s been three months of 10-5 every weekend, digging into our psyches and looking at psychotherapeutic techniques and taking the first steps on the journey towards becoming therapists. It’s been immense.
- Hiring an intern at Bohemiacademia, which will hopefully free up more of my time.
- Running a stand at the Forensics Europe & Counter Terror Expo in London.
- Finally managing to wean myself back onto coffee again! I haven’t been able to drink it for just over two years, but now it seems I can!
- Finishing organising my bookshelves in the bedroom. It’s now basically a library with a bed in the middle.
- Rearranging the living room to include a corner of plants and wine.
- Singing in a concert and it not being a complete disaster, despite having bronchitis.
- Having a meeting with one of my consultants and realising that at least one of my chronic health conditions is getting a little bit better, and being booked in for some sessions with someone who actually knows what they’re doing, and therefore will hopefully be able to help even more.
- Starting singing lessons again and remembering how much I love them and how good they are for me, both physically and mentally.
- Snagging a new and exciting client for Bohemiacademia.
- Having some huge psychological realisations as part of uni, and thus expanding my personal development.
Things That Worked Well
- Not judging myself. Lots of things went out the window this month: I didn’t do any work on the novel; I ate a lot of takeaways; I barely read any books; I didn’t get as much work done as I’d have liked. But, you know what? It was an intense month, and that’s OK. I work hard enough the vast majority of the time, and I’m doing well enough in each of those areas of my life, that having a less-good month is fine.
- Trusting myself more.
- Being open and flexible, without throwing rationality out of the window.
Things That Didn’t Work So Well
- Swimming: I didn’t go.
- Food: I ate a lot of crap.
- Walking: I had barely any time and I was ill the whole month.
- Resting: I was in one of my least favourite positions in March: ill enough for the doctor to prescribe rest, but not ill enough to justify taking time off work. Also, work was incredibly busy, and so was everything else, and there was no time, and all these things came together in a big stress ball.
- My mother coming to stay: which just added to the ball of stressors.
- The novel: had to be shelved for a few weeks due to all of the above.
- Work: required more time than I possessed, so now I’ve fallen behind.
This Month I Walked…
49.8 miles, so a lot less than normal, but again: bronchitis and busyness (potential title for my autobiography?)
This Month I Swam…
Precisely 0 lengths.
This Month I Read…
- Dangerous Families: Assessment and Treatment of Child Abuse by Peter Dale et al.
- After She’s Gone by Camilla Grebe
- Falling Angel by William Hjortsberg
- Animals Eat Each Other by Elle Nash
- Normal by Graeme Cameron
- The Dinner by Herman Koch
- Fallen Angel by Chris Brookmyre
- The Versions of Us by Laura Barnett
- Hot Milk by Deborah Levy
This Month I Watched…
- The Comedy Line-Up
- The Standups
- After Life
- James Acaster: Repertoire
- Crazy Ex-Girlfriend
- The Disappearance of Madeleine McCann
- The OA
- Derry Girls
- The Great British Stand Up To Cancer Bake-Off
- Isn’t It Romantic
- A Kid Like Jake
- Behind The Curve
- Monty Python’s Life of Brian (yes, for the first time!)
What have you been up to this month?