Personal, Weekly Round-Ups

And Then I Broke A Bit Again

…because this is how these things go. One day I’m swimming for three quarters of an hour, pounding laps up and down the pool, walking home in the light mist of rain under the orange glow of the street lamps, climbing the stairs to my flat, winding down with a book for the evening, getting into bed feeling almost well.

And then the next day I wake up and my ribs are aching and I taste blood in the back of my throat, and it feels like there is acid coursing through my veins. On the way up the stairs from my bedroom I stumble into the wall and have to rest there for a moment, because seven steps is just too many to be able to climb in one go. I try to work, of course, because I am me and that is what I do, but ultimately I have to admit defeat and pull a blanket around my shivering skin and curl up on the sofa.

Continue reading “And Then I Broke A Bit Again”

Personal, Weekly Round-Ups

The Week I Got My Brain Back

Last week’s post left off just as I was about to go into hospital to find out when they’d be booking me in for surgery. I had been hoping that it might be fairly soon, since I’m apparently an urgent case and I’ve barely been able to leave the house in months, but hope is a treacherous and flighty beast, and of course things didn’t go quite so smoothly.

The waiting list for surgery is 4-6 months long; the minimum amount of time in which I’ll be booked for surgery is four months. Then there’s an eight-week recovery period, so basically whatever happens I’m essentially taking the rest of the year off.

They can’t push me up the list unless my Angry Internal Organs actually rupture, which made me start wishing they would, until I remembered that would have irritating potential side effects like involuntary sudden death. So I figured maybe I’ll obey the doctor’s instructions and not do anything to make this whole situation any more precarious, and look after my Angry Organs, and hopefully maintain this tenuous truce for as long as I can.

Continue reading “The Week I Got My Brain Back”

Personal, Weekly Round-Ups

The Return of the Weekly Round-Up

As we all know, I’ve been offline a lot lately, and work hasn’t exactly been as busy as it normally is, due to my organs rebelling against their allocated tasks and rising up in a kind of painful internal revolution.

I’m not blogging as often either, mainly because my brain feels like it’s made of cotton wool that’s been drenched in chloroform. But it’s looking like this whole situation is going to be dragging on for fucking ages, and so I’ve decided to return to doing a round-up post once a week on this blog, for four reasons:

  1. There’s generally one day a week when I feel vaguely alive.
  2. I’d like to keep some kind of blog activity going.
  3. While I’m not able to do anywhere near as much as usual, I am still getting some stuff done. Sometimes it’s hard to remember that because of the amount of time I’m currently spending lying on the sofa watching Netflix, but I think it’d be good to reassure myself that I am still living my life, albeit in slo-mo.
  4. People keep asking me for updates on how I am and what condition my health is in, and it’s exhausting to have the same conversation 46 times, so if you want updates, you now know where to get them.

So, without further ado, the round-up of the last week or so.

Continue reading “The Return of the Weekly Round-Up”

Personal

A Pattern I Have Noticed In Myself

Like so many other people, one of my resolutions this year was to eat less crap and do more exercise. Partly to lose weight, but partly just to make myself feel more human and less like a potato.

The exercise thing actually started last year, and continued pretty well, so it’s more of a keeping-going than a starting-up.

Continue reading “A Pattern I Have Noticed In Myself”

Personal, Rants

Shit Jenga

I was talking to my friend the other day about how life seems to have this habit of piling all the annoying crap on at once.

You can’t just have the car break down, you also have to break your heel and the cat has to throw up on the important document you’ve been waiting for.

Continue reading “Shit Jenga”

Books

Britney Spears Book Tag

A while ago, Bee of Vivatramp posted a Britney Spears book tag, and I thought I’d give it a go, because books + Britney = ❤

If you’d like to do it, consider yourself tagged!

Continue reading “Britney Spears Book Tag”

Personal

The Flat Saga

In December 2014, I moved into a flat. Since then, various things have gone wrong with it, and it’s needed a lot of work. The work is now almost complete, and when it is I’ll post an update here with a sort of “tour de flat”. But in the meantime, this is what happened.

I had to write it all out for my landlord, who was trying to work out how much compensation they needed to give me in order to make me not take them to court. Once I’d written it all out, I looked back over it and thought, “Holy shit, no wonder I’ve been so stressed.”

Continue reading “The Flat Saga”